On staff retreat last weekend we did a value-sorting exercise, where we were given 30 values and had to sort them according to importance in work situations. Inevitably, things like "working on the frontiers of knowledg" and "precision work" and "stress/pressure" ranked very low on my value continuum. Likewise, "helping others", "creativity", and "independence" ranked very high. However, so did "mental stimulation" and "working alone".
Which brings me to the conclusion that, if you've been paying attention, has been brewing for quite some time now:
I hate grad school.
I hate group work and partner sharing and stupid projects. I'm tired of observing teacher's whose teaching strategies I don't agree with and I'm sick, sick, SICK of keeping observation journals. The more I sit and listen to lectures on learning theories and EDI and minority representation, the less I want to even be a teacher. Yesterday, I turned in a big project. It was this:
Miss Garcia's Learning Theatre. A visual metaphor of how I learn. Learning is like theatre. The lights illuminate your prior knowledge, the audience assesses both the individual as well as the ensemble performance, blah blah blah.
Am I really doing arts and freaking crafts? I'm 22 years old and I'm making posters for homework. I'm reading boring books that aren't telling me anything about teaching except that it's "the most important job you can have", and no one will just let me teach anything. I'm bored. And anyone who knows anything about behavior management knows that the kids who are most distruptive in class are the ones who are bored. Does anyone remember me in junior high?
When do I get to teach Steinbeck? I'm over it.
Now is the winter of our discontent.
-Shakespeare, Richard III
2 comments:
honestly, this is why I refuse to get my credential and teach at public schools. I really feel like getting my masters in theology would do me a whole lot better than a credential! Anyway, good luck!
right but... i dont want to teach theology, nor do i want to teach at a private school. getting my credential is the only way i can teach what i want to teach where i want to teach it.
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